My neck hurts.

Ahhh, Monday morning. I think I'm getting a sore throat and cricky neck thanks to the fan being on me all night. Okay, I need to perk up. I think my new morning routine is: pee, start coffee, pray, and then write. That's what I figured out today while I was doing those things in that order and it seemed to work. I definitely need God to guide my thoughts and actions today. I've been acting out with the food and other things and I have to get out of this. It makes me feel like shit about myself because I'm not showing up for people in my life and I'm not being creative when I'm masturbating or eating pie 17 hours out of every day. Damn it- I just edited myself. Who cares if "or" was a better choice than "and". Shit. I have to shit. That's fifth on my list of things to do every morning. I can enjoy my coffee while writing, then it's time to poop before I know it. This works! I may have to get up a few minutes earlier than I have been. By the way, if anyone ever reads this, hi. I'm not sure what that was for. I feel like I have to explain this exercise to nobody, which is who is reading this. I think I want to take an English/grammar class. I may have forgotten a lot of key rules of grammar. May I not be a total asshole to my fellow employees and other humans today. May I be a "worker among workers". I want my mind to clear of all the crap that's been up there telling me that I can't do this or that.